Special Ops Mission: Week 1

Okay... well this week's mission is to document what the "thing" that is standing in my way...

Oh... well I thought long and hard! I thought maybe I can talk about my obsession with sweets... and how they are standing in the way of me reaching my weight loss goals.

No, the sweets don't march into my mouth on their own!!!

Then I thought, oh it's because I work 2nd shift... and some nights we are soo busy I don't get a chance to eat dinner... so I eat when I get home at 11 pm. NO! That is still not it!

All of the myriad of things I try to "blame" for my weight loss failure or inability to stay on track or reach goal all lead back to one thing:

Yup, this girl... the one who is eating fudge at the State Fair! The one who has talked her way around any diet/exercise plan... the one who went to dietitians and explained every step of the weight loss process before getting their "counsel" because I know how to do this!!!

Well this girl has had enough! I have told that old girl that it's over! I have broken off our unhealthy relationship with food, the lies and excuses about exercise. It's all over sister!

Help! Did anyone get the name of the truck that just HIT me?

WOW! OK, so I have been working at this stay active every day this week goal.

I am proud to report:


Wed: 40 minutes of yoga.


I would have done more, however I had a migraine "hangover" the after effects of taking migraine medicine the night before. I then went into work as a co-worker had a death in the family. Today is the day I was going to do day 2 of my C25K for the week... however it's raining... and after that yoga I can barely move.

After taking the girls to their swimming lessons this morning I realized... screw the rain... I am going to go for a walk anyway. I put the girls in the bike trailer (that also coverts to a jog-type stroller) donned them in rain coats at their request... and went for a nice little walk. It felt great to feel the rain falling on me. It made me daydream of running in the rain... and I got all giddy inside.

On a side note, I am in big trouble now... I let slip that I am working toward this 5k... because last night I thought my legs were going to fall off... and well now people actually know about it. People I know will be asking me about it. Not just my husband who has heard it a few hundred times with no follow thru, or my friend Jen who has heard me lament about the fact that this girl wants to do a 5k. It's just what I needed to do, let it out. Now, I have to follow thru!

The kids are down for a nap/quiet time and I am off to soak in a nice hot tub as there are muscles that haven't been used for YEARS hollering at me for using them.

Jen - thanks for the Wii Active yesterday... that damn inline skating made my thighs like jello all day yesterday!

Wait... what?? Why wouldn't I want to eat this way?

Yesterday I spent the afternoon with my best friend Jen. We are so much a like it's a little eerie... in fact we not only think a lot alike, enjoy a lot of the same things... but we have struggled with weight for most of our lives as well. It has truly been awesome having her in my life, she's my WI sister seeing as my family is far far away on the East Coast!

We spoke of our failed attempts... and both come back to... JUST FRIGGIN DO IT ALREADY!
Jen is doing awesome!! She is doing a weight loss challenge with her husband and 40 or so other locals... and she is doing smashingly! We had an awesome lunch that she prepared! A spinach salad with chicken, peppers, cucumber, red onions, apples, garlic and herb laughing cow cheese, and a fabulous dressing made from EVOO, Balsamic Vinegar and honey. After eating nearly half the salad I thought man I am full... Jennifer said something that was like a light-bulb moment for me: "This is soo good, why wouldn't you want to eat this way all the time?"

I pondered that thought all day! It's just as easy to make healthy home made meals than it is to drive thru at McDonald's! All it takes is prep, planning, and motivation. Well planning I can handle that... prep... sure... motivation, I have been lacking otherwise this ship would have sailed long ago! But it dawned on me, the motivation is right here... staring me in the face... ME! I am totally worth every bit of time I put into eating healthy!! I am totally worth the extra effort and time it takes to exercise! I AM WORTH IT!

I can take time and volunteer to do nearly anything for anyone... but when it comes to do something for myself... I have a hard time. When in my life did I start to think that I wasn't worth it?? I can bring all that up... but it's old news. I have no reason to dwell on the past... I have been doing that for years and all it has gotten me is some extra weight around my middle.

Today is a new day. I matter, I am worth it! I can't go back and change the past, my ups and downs... my failed attempts... The only thing I have control over right now is myself... and how I tackle this mission, this journey, this season of my life. Onward and upward...

Day-to-Day Business...

Being a Mom... one who works part time... and one who will be returning back to school in 4 short weeks... there are days that I am just done! I have no energy or desire to get one more thing done, exercise included. With this "I can't possibly do another thing" attitude I have found that I can very easily tune in for reality TV for hours on end, search aimlessly online for nothing... and read many blogs to my hearts desire. How can one have no time but waste so much time doing nothing?

This week my commitment is to be physically active and accountable for my exercise and activity goals. My goal is to fill my time that I would normally be "doing nothing" with something fun... active... and that will make me sweat!

So far this is my progress:
Monday: 30 minutes of yoga, 10 minutes walking... and 20 minutes of soccer warm-up with my daughter.
Tuesday: 40 minutes of yoga, and a 30 minute bike ride pulling an extra 70lbs in children behind me...

Now, yes... I did sit and watch TV with my husband last night... but I did get some exercise in! One step forward and closer to my goal! YEAH!

Virgin Posting ACK!

Well Blogger of the Year I am NOT!! I have only ever made one feable attempt at a blog... and failed miserably! Being that this is more of a journal of re-discovery... redefining who I want to be... a HEALTHY MOM!! I want to set an example for my children... leave them a legacy of healthy living and physical fitness.

My plan is to eat healthy:
*Eating lean healthy proteins/meats
*Incorporating lots of fruits and vegetables in my daily intake
*Increase my Water intake
*Commit to my workout regimen!

Welcome to my journey... one I remember calling it "The journey to Hell..." primarily because I had tried every diet in the WORLD... (not ever completely committing to them) and felt that the diets had failed me. In reflection, I was the one who FAILED myself. I look forward to writing more of my thoughts and sharing this journey with those who are in the same boat.